Cinta adalah Setia atau Selingkuh

Hoaaaahmm... Masih pagi begini ‘saya’ sudah diributkan perkara cinta. Saya adalah barang lembek yang bersarang di dalam tempurung fosfor dan kalsium, saya punya banyak cairan menjijikkan yang terkadang keluar dari lubang hidung tanpa bisa dikontrol. Well kembali tentang cinta. Mata saya menonton Dahsyat yang menghadirkan bintang tamu Opa Felix. Dia sudah tua, dia ikut audisi Indonesian Idol dan suaranya aduhai bohay. Dia mempersembahkan sebuah lagu klasik romantis untuk istrinya tercinta. Bahkan dengan terang-terangan ia mengungkapkan betapa ia sangat mencintai istrinya di depan kamera yang sedang live on air itu.

Saya memikirkan pengertiannya tentang cinta; full attention, care and forgiveness. Dengan sedikit jeda ia menambahkan forever. Mungkin kalau Adung dengar ini ia akan berkomentar ‘dasar, cah cinta!’ wkwkwk

I try to synchronize it with something happened in my life. Accidentally, yesterday I knew that someone I love felt uncomfort with my feeling (read: love). He wanted me to love him, yes just to love him not love him so much. =) I was confused how to decrease something flow automatically.  Perhaps there’s something wrong with me or him. I don’t even know. 

If love were really full attention, care and forgiveness forever, it should be easy to accept love without asking to do that nor this. I’m confused. Totally confused. I don’t know how to love someone. I don’t know how to feel something. I don’t know what to do.

A friend of mine was cheating, actually she had a fiancee. She said that cheating was just for fun and her fiancee was really her husband in the future. I knew something had happened to her before yet I didn’t agree how cheating must be revenged with cheating.

This is love, how love can influence everybody with extremely different reactions each other. I try not to think anymore, I try not to be confused anymore, just accept the feeling you all guys give to me. =)
Keep loving in our own ways.